Äe kel se soloag ne 'ou hule" (You have seen the setting of your moon [life])
My beautiful blue eyed baby 💔
Seth LaBelle Fendelander, 31, died Tuesday, May 17, 2016 from injuries sustained in a fatal stabbing in Big Bear City, Calif. Seth was born January 23, 1985 in Siloam Springs, Ark. He was a lifelong resident of Gentry, Ark. Seth was a fantastic drummer, he loved people and music. We hope that his family and friends talk of him often, so we can all hear the music of his name out loud and not just remember him in our hearts.
He is survived by his daughters, Daisy Fendelander; Sophia Fendelander (Sophia's mother Shereen Usmani of Silverado, Calif.,); his mother and step-father, Bill and Vickie Costello; maternal grandparents, Dan & Sharon LaBelle; sister, Danielle (Fendelander) Johnson; brother, Vincent Fendelander; aunt, Shawn (LaBelle) Hunter; cousin, Alex Hunter; nephew, Conley Johnson; niece, Natalie Johnson as well as numerous aunts, uncles, cousins and friends who will miss him dearly. He is preceded in death by Father, James E. Fendelander & his cousin Bobby Stacy.
The world will never be the same without you love. I miss you more than words can say. Time does not heal all wounds. There will never be enough time in the expanse of space that will let my heart heal.
ReplyDeleteI can't believe you not in this world any longer darlin' my heart breaks when I see your face. Every time I see a cool rock, a road we have been down, a place where we went when you and D were kids, it reminds me again that you aren't here, then I cry. They tell me it gets easier, I don't believe it...not one bit. It might fade for a while but comes back with a vengeance. I hate a man I don't even know, they tell me I should forgive him so I can see you again in heaven, I'm not sure I believe that one...NEVER WILL I FORGIVE HIM!
ReplyDeleteI spent time with the apple of your eye darlin'. The entire week!! She is beautiful, your Sophia. She has your eyes and her moms hair.
ReplyDeleteI hate that I cant hear your voice say to me, "Momma, guess what I found today?"
ReplyDeleteI took Sophia to the beach while I was in California. When we walked up to where we were putting the umbrella up, Sophia says, "Look, isn't it pretty?" I look up and she's pointing to the water, I look closer and there is this beautiful white rock in the waves. I told her I would go get it, if she stayed by the blanket. I go out to grab the rock, only a portion of it is sticking out of the sand. It was huge, almost 12 pounds, maybe more. It took me 3 times, running back out between the waves coming in, just to dig it out of the sand. It is this beautiful white crystal and black carbon filled rock! I bring it to her and she said, "my daddy would take this home." I smiled and I replied, "yes he would." So to the truck it went. 1200 miles later, here it sits in the house. It reminds me of Sophia, and that first day I got to spend with her, but mostly I think it reminds me of you. I truly believe, in my heart, that you must have showed her that rock in the waves that day on the beach. It was the first thing Sophia saw. I don't know if I will ever be able not to cry when my thoughts take me to you. I miss you every day love. Every single moment. Forever is much to long, I'm hoping that forever is only a word, one that we use for lack of the knowledge of what's after death. I'm hoping that our body is only temporary and our soul is eternal. I wish a million times a moment that I could hear your voice. Mom.
It’s 3 years now, the strange emptiness in my soul never leaves me. It feels strange to say “Happy” because there is nothing that makes me more sad, than today 💔
ReplyDelete🎉Happy birthday love 💕 I know you're hanging out & fishing with your dad today.💞 Wish you were here. We all miss you every day💔 I wish I could hear your voice.....
I don't know my password that' why I'm posting under anonymous. My name is Phyllis Fendelander Niper I am Jim Fendelander older sister. I never had the chance to meet Seth when he was born my mom and I send clothes & toys for him to Vicky & Jim when he was born. My parents got to visit once when Seth & Danielle were young. After their visit our dad died of a virus our mom died of cancer and our older brother was murdered then I got word Jim died of a heart attack. My younger sister and I are left in the family everyone else died before their time. I didn't know about Seth' death I accidentally found out on the internet and was shocked and upset no one told me but I know what it' like to lose many love one your in total shock. I've gone through so much pain on my side and my husbands side. My husbands older brother was also murdered and his younger brother shot himself. Then last week I heard from my cousin in Canada to tell me her brother who' also my cousin commited suicide. He' our 2nd cousin in Canada who' committed suicide. He was in the military most of his life and had severe PTSD. If I knew about Seth earlier I would have come to ARK for the trial. I'm so heart broken over Seth' death I hope his wife/girlfriend is ok along with his 2 kids. My prayers go out to you all. I pray this is it I can't take anymore deaths or pain. FYI the Fendelander' all have beautiful blue eyes I don't know how far back it goes but I know our grandmother & great grandmother on the Fendelander side all had beautiful blue eyes along with my mother who is a LeBlanc it' a Fendelander trait. God Bless to everyone hurt by this tragedy.
DeleteMy dear nephew Seth we spoke on the phone a few times but I never got to meet you. Everytime I spoke to your dad (my brother) he would talk about you & Danielle along with your kids. He was so happy to be a grandfather and was alway' worried about Danielle. I'm so sorry to hear what happened to you I was looking on line one night and came across your story on what happened I couldn't believe it I was so devastated. I've lost so many family members to murder & suicide everytime I turn around. I pray your happy with your dad, grandma & grandpa Fendelander.
ReplyDeleteI miss you more than words can say or than eyes can see. It's your birthday today and I wanted to see you beautiful face, so I don't forget those eyes my love.
ReplyDeleteA poem for you Love <3
~ Here He Comes Again ~ by Rod McCuen
Here he comes again, head high and smiling
shakin' down the world, playin' it cool.
He smiles as though he never been
hunted by the crowd, beaten by the fools.
Think of all the men who never knew the answers
think of all those who never cared.
Still there are some who ask why
who want to know, who dare to try,
Every now and then we meet that kind of man
here he comes again and now he's gone.
The world isn't the same without you darlin'
Much love, Mom